If you tip water into my mouth, I will drink. If you place a morsel of food in my mouth, I will chew, and swallow. These are involuntary actions. Necessary, but of no importance. They do not distract me from my purpose, which is to think.
I was trained from an early age to perform this function. Trained to memorise, to calculate, and to compute. My brain has been honed into a perfect machine, dedicated to solving the King’s problems, however banal.
I do not need light to think, so I sit in the dark. I do not need soft beds, or fresh air, or companionship. I do not need music, or art, or laughter. I avoid these distractions by operating in a room deep under the castle. Once it was a wine cellar; it is dark, and it stays the same temperature all year round. The single entrance is kept locked, and only those with legitimate access to me are permitted to enter. The only other similar location for me – the dungeons - are noisy and chaotic by comparison.
I do not sleep while I am thinking – I am trained to rest different parts of my brain at a time, so that I can keep a chain of thought alive. But when I have no problems to solve, I do little except sleep. This allows me to build new connections between the data and conclusions I have made, and helps me to better tackle future problems.
I woke from such a sleep as the door of my room creaked open. A light approached, merely a candle in a pewter holder, but painfully bright to my sensitive eyes. I quickly ran through the mental exercises I perform upon every awakening; they sharpen the mind, ready to accept a new challenge.
I did not recognise the girl who stood uncertainly before me.
“Are you the King’s Computer?” She asked, in a lilting, foreign, accent.
“I am.” I confirmed.
“And you can answer any question?”
“No.” I replied. I could have left it at that, but if I have a fault, it is pride in my abilities, so I explained to her why her question was wrong. “I am not omniscient. Some questions require information I do not have, and so I must ask for that information before I can answer.”
She nodded. “What is love?”
I paused. It was not the sort of question I was asked. I ran through what data I had.
Love is a many splendored thing.
Love is blind.
All you need is love.
I stared at her, and she held my gaze unabashed. “That is your question? What is love?”
“Yes. What is love? How long does love last? And how do you know when you are in love?”
“I will need to think about this.” I said.
She gently inclined her head, and turned to go. “Wait.” I commanded. “I need to know what level of priority this question has, in case other demands are made of me.”
She brought the candle closer to her other hand, and I saw the oversized signet ring that her slim finger bore, and as she left I settled into my thoughts.
She returned 12 hours and 34 minutes later.
“How are you getting on?” She asked.
I paused a moment before answering, uncertain what to say. “It’s a tricky one.”
“Yes.” She nodded. “Do you need anything? Any input?”
I had not rung the bell. There was nothing I knew for certain that I needed. But she was offering me information. “I need to know the average dowry of a farm girl. The number of silk favours displayed during the last Michaelmas joust. The number of apothecaries on Downham Row last year, and now.”
She laughed, a light musical laugh. “Very well. I shall try and find out for you. Anything else?”
“I need to know what chocolate tastes like.” I stammered. “I need to know what wind feels like as it brushes through your hair on a warm summer’s day. I need... ” I did not know what else I needed.
She looked up at me pityingly. “You do not know these things? Oh the evil of it! But now I hear someone coming, so I must go.”
She slipped into the corridor beyond the door and I heard muffled voices, coarse laughter, a shriek, the sharp retort of a slap. The door opened again and two of the Advisor’s clerks bounced into the room.
“My, that’s a mighty fine piece of ass!” One said as he rubbed his reddened cheek. “I wouldn’t mind being the King for a day - I’d return her little love tap in spades!”
“Jack, you don’t half pick ‘em.” The other said wearily, as he laid a few scrolls on a desk by the door. “If it ain’t the nearest gutter-wench it’s a mountain Princess who’d fillet you before she give you the time of day!”
“Whatd’ya mean? She’s a mere slip of a girl. Feisty, but give me a couple of hours and I’d have her eating out of me hands.”
The one who was not Jack scoffed. “She’s more likely to serve your hands to you for dinner. I hear that where she’s from the lady-folk keep wickedly sharp daggers in their pants. The King won’t let her near him until she’s been thoroughly strip-searched. Now THAT I would like to see! What was she doing in here?”
Jack shrugged. “Beats me. I wouldn’t want to spend any more time down here than I have to. Gives me the creeps. Shall we get on?”
They asked me a dozen petty questions about the state of the Armoury and the number of Men At Arms that could be levied by the Kings’ Dukes. I refused to answer, telling them that they would have to wait. They called the Advisor, who shouted at me, and threatened to deprive me of food, but to no avail. So he called the General.
“So what’s all this?” The General barked. “Bloody Advisor messing with your head again? He shouldn’t be allowed to look after someone as valuable as you, my boy! But we’ve work to do, so let’s have no more nonsense. The mountain tribes are amassing on our borders, come to rescue their damned Princess. They’re unruly, but numerous – never seen so many of the blighters! So we need to come up with a plan...”
“I am already working on a question.” I interrupted.
He laughed, a deep booming noise in the small confined space. “Never mind that, my lad. Here’s my ring, so clear the decks! Now their army is 20,000 strong...”
“The question I am working on takes priority.” I told him.
He stopped, and then turned and stared at the Advisor, who blanched. “I know nothing, General Sir. But the only person with higher authority than you is the King.”
The General drummed his fingers on the pommel of his sword.
“Well.” He said quietly. “If the King...” and then he abruptly spun on his heel and marched out.
I ignored the harsh words of the Advisor, and when he began slapping me and stars appeared before my eyes, I ignored those as well, and eventually he too left.
She returned as promised, 11 hours and 13 minutes later. All day long I had heard construction noises in and around the castle, and I wanted to ask her what all the commotion was. But it was not pertinent to the problem.
She told me what she’d learnt about the dowry, the favours, and the chemists, though none of it was important anymore, as my calculations had moved on from there. And then she stood on her tiptoes and pressed something between my lips. An intense burst of bitter flavour flooded my mouth. I rolled the slowly melting ball around, feeling it coat my tongue and my teeth.
“That,” she said “is chocolate. The best there is. None of this valley rubbish.”
I swallowed hastily. “I did not need to taste it. I merely needed you to describe it to me.”
She laughed again, the same lyrical laugh. “Some things can’t be described. Like this...”
She bent forward, raised the candle, and gently blew. Warm air spilled over my bare arms, and the hairs twitched and then stood upright. I looked down in wonder.
“So,” she asked quietly. “Do you know the answer yet?”
“No.” I admitted. “But ... I know what it is not.”
“Oh?” she said, her eyes twinkling in the candle light.
“It is not oysters, or powdered rhino horn, or any other aphrodisiac. It is not a magical enchantment, or chemical potion.”
“All true,” she said. “But not the answer”.
“No,” I agreed, emboldened. “I know also that it cannot be imprisoned, or forced. It is not a matter of convenience; it cannot be arranged, bartered, or planned for. And it does not know rank, or race.”
“You’re getting closer.” She said, smiling, and I felt a warmth at her words. “But I think you need some more inspiration.”
She took a sponge from a leather bag and mopped my brow, the coolness of the water startling me. She crushed lavender in her petite hands, the smell infused the air, briefly banishing the stale mustiness. And she danced for me, her shadow cast by the solitary candle weaving itself into my consciousness.
“Why do you spend so much time with me?” I asked.
“Because I want to.” Was her simple reply. “And because only in your cell am I not treated as a prisoner.” She stopped her swaying, and drew a delicate finger over my cheek and lips. “Ahh, I wish I could spend more time with you. But I will be missed, however chaotic it is up there, and when they come looking, they must not find me here. So farewell, King’s Computer.”
I... I lost track of time. Something I had not done since I was a child, forced to count the grains of sand in a thimble, while declaiming in Greek. All I could think of was the touch of her hand.
So I don’t know exactly when it was that the King stormed in. “They tell me – God! It stinks down here!” He stopped abruptly and turned on the Advisor. “You loathsome reptiles, do you never give him a wash? At least someone has had the sense to strew lavender.” He waved his nosegay under his nose. “So, you won’t take orders from anyone but me. Well here I am, and here’s the situation. The General rode out to meet the advancing army last night, and was soundly defeated. He told me you’d given him an unbeatable strategy, whereas the Advisor says you did nothing of the sort. Damned fool! It’s a good thing he’s dead, otherwise I’d be wearing his hide right now! The heathen rabble advance on, dammit! I won’t rest until their whole army fertilises my fields.” He paused. “Which is the problem. Only a few of my army made it back. We’re prepared for a long siege, but I’ve no intention of spending the rest of winter a prisoner in my own Kingdom! So, compute. We have a dozen trebuchets, a bit short on ammo for them, and half a dozen siege machines. Not sure what use they will be, but...”
“I have an answer.”
The King stopped mid word. A smile exploded across his bearded face. “I KNEW it! Never let me down yet! So, what’s the plan?”
“First release the mountain Princess. Send her with a small escort to meet the approaching army.”
His face turned red, his meaty hands formed fists. And then he slowly relaxed. “Well. There are plenty more where she came from, especially if it will secure the destruction of their whole army...” He turned and snapped orders to his Captain of Arms, who departed rapidly up the stairs.
“And next?” he asked eagerly.
“Throw open the castle gates. Better yet, sever them from their chains, and allow them to fall into the moat.”
He smiled. “Ahh. I see a ruse coming. A master stroke, yes? A feint - the castle becomes a steely trap? Cunning! Very cunning. Where’s the Captain, ah blast it. Advisor, see that it is done!”
The Advisor nervously adjusted his cloak. “But sir...”
“Now goddammit, or I’ll be wearing your hide instead!” The King roared, and the Advisor fled.
“And the final part?” The King asked, breathlessly, now that we were alone.
I calculated. The Captain would take time to select the escort, uncertain how well the mountain tribes would treat them. And the Advisor would need to call upon armed guards to convince the Gate Master to do as he told him. But none of that mattered, because the Advisor in his haste had slammed the door shut, and it only opened from the outside. I waited a moment until he was out of earshot.
“Love is putting someone else before yourself. Love is forever. And you know when you are in love only if you are in love.”
And then I stared down at the crushed lavender and awaited my fate.
The King's Computer by Liam Hogan was read by Ben Crystal at the Liars' League Decline & Fall event on Tuesday 8 September 2009 at The Wheatsheaf in London.
Liam Hogan has been writing for a long time, but hasn't been paid since he was 11. He thinks that a sequel to The Pixie that lost his way is overdue, but in the meantime, here's another one for Liars' League.